Fearless

I had to put Fearless (our dog) down yesterday. We aren't sure if it was the cancer or old or age or what but he was getting more aggressive. He had been slowly getting worse for a while but we able to manage it. After Scott left on the fire, started getting more aggressive towards Brandon especially and even I wasn't sure if I could completely handle him anymore. We were hoping he would start to decline more physically and make it easier on us to say well he can't walk, breathe whatever becuase he still seemed happy a lot of the time especially outside. I was going to try to wait until Scott came home but Thursday night he chased BJ into Brandon's room while I was in there too and trapped us all in. I couldn't break him of his episode. Luckily I had me cell phone with me because I was waiting for a call from Scott and was able to call Mom and have her come over and knock on the door to get him away. Then I was able to settle him down. So I decided I couldn't take any more chances and took him in on Friday. Mom stayed with the kids. I am so grateful she has a job where she can take off quickly when needed. I was able to be with him the whole time and he was very calm like he knew and was okay with it but I still feel guilty. I know I made the right decision and the safety of my children come first but it doesn't help to not feel like you just killed him. Jessie already wants to look for a new dog but I told her that we were going to wait and make sure that we get the right choice for all of us not just a replacement. BJ does need a doggie companion eventually though he is just too much of a dog lover.
On another note. Scott is doing okay and is safe. Him and Dad had a close call yesterday though. THeir division almost got caught in the fire and they barely made it out. Keep praying for them. They just got volunteered to take one day off and do another seven when their fourteen is up. I am glad Dad was on this one with Scott so they only had one rookie otherwise he would have had two new guys with him and who knows what would have happened. I trust Scott's abilities and have never really worried about him on fires even now but keep praying in case I am wrong.