Christmas

Christmas has come and gone again. This year was probably the most relaxed that we have had considering the stress everyone is under. No one fought, and everyone was in a good mood. We went to the riverwalk, to the mall to see Santa, and to elictricritters at the zoo. Christmas Eve was spent at Chris' winter wonderland house again. He really outdid himself this year. Check his facebook page if you haven't seen the pictures of his house. I am not sure whether the kids really believe in Santa or they are just pretending to but they aren't ready to give it up yet. In some ways it will be easier when they don't but then that just means they are growing up that much faster. Jessie loves everything about Christmas and I think she is afraid that will take some of the wonder out of it. Brandon worries about too much already and he isn't ready to give up that piece of childhood yet although I am pretty sure he is just going along with it. I made an advent calendar this year with little boxes with items inside that they can use every year and I asked them what each thing made them think of when they saw it and Brandon's answer was Jesus for everything even if it was a snowman. He told me that he didn't need presents this year just being with his family was enough. He still got presents though. It was a little rough without Rachel this year but Chris seemed to get through it fine. This was supposed to be our year and it wasn't but I am grateful that we still have a roof over our heads and were able to give the kids a good Christmas. I know there are many people that couldn't do that. Some day my hope is that we are well enough off that we can do more for the people who don't have much and give more. May next year be blessed and better for everyone.

                                   Jessie got a purple unicorn and a flutterbye fairy from Santa, Brandon has become a master at catching the fairy

                                 Brandon got a rescue helicopter and a antique firetruck

                          The annual Jesus birthday cake

Jessie

Brandon and Jessie were arguing over what the highest mountain in the world was. Brandon thought it was Mt Everest and Jessie thought it was Mt Kilimanjaro. I told Jessie she just likes saying the name and she said no they learned about it school, at least she thought they did. She said, "those darn teachers keep cramming information in my head and I can't keep it all in, I think some is starting to leak out."

Brandon's Scrooge play

Brandon was Marley in their fifth grade Scrooge play. He was very good. He didn't even get flustered when Scrooge forgot her lines. I was very proud of him. I didn't know he could get his voice so low. The only problem was that for almost his whole scene there was a podium in his way and no one could see him until he moved over. I wish the music teacher would think of these kinds of things during plays. Oh well. Here are some pics of him. They has him in black light to make it look more spooky.

 

 

Halloween

Brandon decided to be an Army man this year and Jessie an indian because I found an Indian costume to wear and she said that Scott and I had to dress up also. Scott went as a fireman, big stretch. We took the to the zoo for the boo zoo trick or treating and then the rides that night on Sat. They had their Halloween parties at school which was kind of disappointing because Brandon's class didn't even make a full circle so I didn't get good pictures of him. They still had fun though. That night we went to Chris' for dinner and then to GG's and trick or treating. They had a lot of fun.

Brandon's story

Brandon submitted this story for the Pueblo library's scary story contest. He was one of 12 winners. He gets a certificate, copy of all the stories, an award ceremony and a gift certificate to a book store. I am trying to convince him to give me the book certificate since I helped him type it but so far no luck.

Getting a scary package

 

 I got a package in the mail one night. It was a large package. My great grandfather sent it to me. It was covered in slime and had skull signs on it and a picture of a pirate. When I opened it, there was a cage in the box.  There was a furry ball in the cage. I opened the cage and out comes a big, black monster with raging eyes and razor sharp teeth. The teeth looked strong enough to bite through a semi-truck. It had giant feet kind of like Godzilla. He had giant claws on his furry hands. He had spikes down his back and on his long tail.  The monster started to chase me all around the neighborhood. I ran through the woods into the cemetery, jumping over open graves. The fall leaves were crunching under feet as I ran. The monster’s large feet made him jump higher than ever.  He chases me into a lake. I swam as fast as I could to get away. He chased me back to my house.  I ran into my room as fast as I could. The monster knocked the door down and I ran out the window. I got on my dirt bike and I went out into the forest. The monster started an animal roundup. He got all the animals to start chasing me. I was being surrounded by animals, so I jumped off my dirt bike and climbed a tree to safety. I jumped onto the monster’s back and I was able to control him by holding onto his big, long ears and kicking him with my feet like a horse. I was able to get him out of the forest and I thought if I drove him into the ocean that he would drown. But he didn’t. He swam all the way to an island. I thought I was safe so I went back home. Some time later, there was a knock on the door. When I opened it there was the monster. I screamed and he put his hands over his ears. I realized he was sensitive to loud noises, so I grabbed my trumpet and started playing loudly. He couldn’t take it anymore, and he crawled back into his cage where it was quieter. I ran over there really fast and shut it. I threw the cage back into the box. I took the box outside and burned it. The monster was finally gone.

CWFS

We have started to make changes to the business to hopefully start bringing in more money. One of our firefighters got us in touch with a man who initially was just going to get us in on the 9/11 ceremony in Pueblo. When Scott met with him and explained the problems we are having, he decided to help us out. This guy does everything and knows everyone. Not only did he get us on the ceremony, we got to do an opening for a new VA clinic and Scott got to present an award to Congressman Scott Tipton. He is also getting us in touch with other people and got us turned into a nonprofit company. Now we can accept donations and eventually receive grants. We are also getting publicity and "networking". It is almost overwhelming. Right now none of this is paying but hopefully that will start changing and we will bring in work that does pay. As a nonprofit, we are now considered a volunteer fire department and can raise money to start the training facility we always wanted to. I am praying that this is the answer to our prayers and things will start changing for the better for us. I kept saying that this was our year because Scott and I have been married 13 years and while that would be unlucky for most, that should bring us luck. We haven't had a lot of good things happen to us in these past years. I was starting to give up hope that this wasn't going to be our year after all. Better late than never. Please keep praying for us that nothing happens to mess this up, we really need some miracles.

 

                                              Scott and Dad taking the wreath

                                               Coming back

                                           Scott Tipton receiving the award

                                            Marines, City fire, Scott Tipton and us

 

 

                                                The city fire guard

                                           our wreath is the pretty one on the far left

                                           CWFS crew

 

Scott with Congressman Scott Tipton

Brandon

So Brandon decided that he wanted to try out for a speaking part in the 5th grade Scrooge play. He also wanted to try for student council president. I was worried about him not getting the president because he is not a straight A student and not the most popular kid in his class. Not that he doesn't have his share of friends and the teachers love him but you know what I mean. Any way we had to make posters for him and he had to write a speech and say it in front of the 3-5 grades. Here was his speech. Good morning students and staff. My name is Brandon Atterberry and I am in Mrs. Hanratty’s class. Some things you might not know about me is that I really love to learn and try new things. I have always wanted to help people. I want to be a firefighter when I grow up and I love animals and want to open a shelter someday. I am determined and hard working. I am a great listener which will benefit me in the president’s position. As someone who has struggled with school and dealt with teasing I know what it is like and want to help fellow students make sure that no one is left out. I want to promote recycling and picking up trash. I will do my best to make sure that your voices are heard and I am open to ideas. I want to make sure that the school continues to be a great place to learn and have fun. Thank you

He didn't get it but I am so proud of him for even trying. He did however get the part of Marley in the Scrooge play. That is something I never thought he would do either. He also volunteered to help with props once his part is finished. I never could have got up the nerve to do that so I am so proud of him for putting himself out there.

Frusturated

I used to have faith that everything was going to be all right no matter what was happening in my life. After I lost Kimmie, it shook me faith that bad things could happen to my family. I have long since come to terms with losing a child and am thankful that at least she died before I really got to know her but I have never been able to completely get back the feeling of calm that would surround me and let me know that God was near and everything would be okay. There's no little voice telling me what I should do or that it will be alright. When I pray, I feel desperate instead of peaceful. Every time I start to feel that things are starting to work out, everything falls apart again. I am trying to stay positive and I know things could be much worse. It's hard when I see people who seem like everything goes so easy for them and everything is a struggle for us. I have to great kids who are questioning why God hasn't answered our prayers yet. They say it's not like we are asking for anything huge, so why aren't we getting it. It is hard to keep telling them to just have faith, that our prayers will be answered in the right time, when it is always such a tight crunch. I know that God has been helping us and it's not like I have no faith left but I don't understand why we have to constantly be right down to losing everything before something happens. Scott and have had major trials throughout our marriage and have I have tried to keep the faith throughout it but when does something finally good come of it? When do my dreams get to be realized? Why is it that when something good starts to fall into place, it suddenly fall apart? If it wasn't meant to happen they why hasn't what was supposed to happen happened yet? Everything is changing and I can't control the changes but I feel like it is spinning out of control and I can't feel God there to help stop it.

School starts again

Another school year starting. The kids just finished their first week. Brandon is in 5th grade this year and Jessie in 2nd. It is depressing to think this is his last year in elementary school. The school is doing upgrades and the main entrance is still not open so everyone has to go through one door which makes it interesting to say the least. The attendance has also almost doubled so at the last minute they added another 5th grade and 3rd grade class. They already added another kindergarten class to make three. I don't know what it is about school starting but the kids immediately start talking about Halloween and donating money to places. They always hit me up with the donations when I have the least money after buying all their school supplies. Do charities start promoting more at school time so the kid's see more commercials? I don't know. We are still planning to go to the State Fair next weekend and the Denver Aquarium in Sept and hopefully a few mountain trips before it gets too cold so they still have things to look forward to.

Brandon birthday

So Brandon turned 11. As usual Mom took the week of his birthday off for vacation so we did lots of stuff. We had his party on the Sat before and Scott's family came out on Sunday. On his actual birthday we went to the zoo. Dad even took the day off so it was a real family event. It was kind of cool because they changed some things around so it was like seeing it new. It was also cooler so the animals were out more than usual. We also went to the children's museum. It was okay but I wouldn't take the kids if they didn't have free tickets for themselves, they still had fun though. We went swimming although not as much as we would have liked to because of the weather. Brandon still had his baseball practice and game. Friday we took the dogs and kids to the park for lunch. It was a good week. Only two and a half weeks left before school starts. Also did I mention Jessie is taking summer tap classes? She likes them but doesn't think she is progressing fast enough so will be happy when they are over.

                                             Jess just loves her brother

                                               new pitching machine

                                             the fire station

                                        a police station to go with the fire station he already has like that
He also got some science experiments, and a few other things. My baby boy is growing up but he still likes enough kid like things to make it easier. More pics will be posted to shutterfly soon.

recycled dollhouse

This was my dollhouse that was made for me when I was about 6 years old. Jessie wanted it but it was starting to fall apart so we decided to make her one for Christmas. We made it big that way when she grows out of it she can turn it into a bookshelf or something. We took parts off the old one and put them on hers so she would have a part of mine.

While we were making Jessie's, Brandon said he would like the rest of the dollhouse to be made into a fire station for him. For his birthday we gave him his fire station. (more about his birthday later) We had to redo the top of the dollhouse because we couldn't put a landing pad on the old roof. Dad got really into it and kept wanting to add stuff but we ran out of time. I made a CWFS plaque for the outside and a fire painting on the inside and Chris and Dad are going to make furniture for Christmas to go into it.

So now my dollhouse is completely gone but lives on with the kids hopefully for many years to come. I hope they have as much fun with theirs as I did and appreciate the work that went into making them

update on Scott

So they spent 7 days at Black Forest and had 5 home. They had to work on the foam proportioner so they  had to take a few days off, long enough for Scott to get to go to Brandon's baseball game. Then Scott started to get ansy because the fires were going crazy and they weren't calling us. It is extremely frusturating to be right here and not get called. They finally called on him Sunday but he didn't leave until Monday afternoon. By then the fire was almost under control so he was only there four days. It is sad that politics takes precedent over people's homes. They would rather lose homes than bring in contractors as a priority. We are working on changing that but it is a slow process. In the meantime hopefully Scott will be out a lot this summer, we need a good season. Many don't think of the other dangers of firefighting besides fire. There is the falling trees, accidents, wildlife and poison ivy. The fire Scott is on right now he ran into poison ivy. Luckily he carries stuff for that so it didn't get too bad. They are also seeing a lot of wildlife running around. Some firefighters came upon and startled a mountain lion not to mention the bears, rattlesnakes, etc. We are hoping he will get reassigned to another fire but it is not looking likely right now. He does get to go to Brandon's game tonite though. He got really good reviews for going above and beyond firefighting. They helped a boyscout camp clear out and buried a cat that died from smoke inhalation. The family was very thankful that their house was still there and appreciated that they didn't have to see their pet that way. Most don't realize what all the firefighters do beyond fighting the fire. They also try to rehab the area after the fire, regrading dozer trails, filling in stump holes, etc. On the Black Forest fire, our crew spent several days filling in holes so families wouldn't fall into them when they got back to their homes. I am very proud of our guys.

Scott's fire

Scott and dad are on the Black Forest fire. They went up on Wednesday. They are on patrol making sure the fire doesn't cross fire breaks. They did manage to save two homes and some chickens. One of the homes had fire on it's deck and they were able to put it out before it did too much damage and started the house on fire. It makes me mad that people say that contractors are no good and it should be left up to the fire departments. I don't think the owners of the homes would think that of course they will never know it was contractors that save them. The boys don't do it for the glory but it hurts when we get a bad rap when they are just as qualified if not more so. Never say that one truck and three firefighter don't do any good.

Last day of school

Yesterday Jessie had Teddy Bear day at school where they got to bring a blanket and stuffed animal and play games and watch a movie. Brandon had a party because he passed his final math test which was a big deal for him since math is difficult for him. Today they got to go home after their assemblies were over. Jessie's was first. She received awards for super performance in reading, writing and math. Advanced performance in spelling. The Book It! rocking reader award, Awesome acts of kindness award, AR top 93% earner silver award, AR top point earner with 26.7 points, hard worker award and perfect attendance for 4th quarter. She would have had more AR points but she didn't think she could take more than one test a week until the last few weeks of school, then she figured it out and took a test every day. Next year she will know. I am very proud of her and know she will do great in second grade. She is my little ray of sunshine and is so smart and funny and lights up a room. Almost all of the teachers know who she is because she has that kind of personality that makes herself known anywhere she goes. Her teacher told us that she will miss her and she never worried about putting her in groups because she gets along with everyone and tries to make them all feel at ease.

Brandon received excellence in spelling and technology, Colorado historian award, a citizenship award for good behaviour and 4th quarter perfect attendance. He also made the merit roll several times this year. I am also very proud of him. He may never get as many awards as Jessie but he has greatly improved in most aspects of school. He improved enough he no longer needs assistance with reading. He is making great strides in overcoming his learning disabilities and I know that one day he will do great things and any shortcomings he may have in school he more than makes up for in his compassion and personality. He is starting baseball again this summer and is already showing improvement from last year. I know I am bragging but I am trying to embrace the fact that they are growing up great rather than to think about the fact that they are growing up so fast. It is really depressing to think that Brandon is going to be a fifth grader next school year. I just hope my next blog isn't complaining about how I can't wait for school to start because they are driving me crazy. We are taking them out to eat and to the drive in movies for their end of the year celebration.

Pat's party pictures

Here are the pictures from Aunt Pat's birthday party.

                                          Some of the decorations

                                          The balloons

                                          picture frames GG got her

 

                                             Kindle Uncle Jim bought her

                                             Art magnets Brandon and Jessie made

                                           3D book mark Mom got her

                                          The kids helping blow out the candles

More school happenings

Brandon had a field trip to the symphony. It was kid's day and a bunch of the schools were there. They played movies silently and did the music for it like the old silent movies. Brandon said it was kind of cool but being in the dark with only music playing, a bunch of them fell asleep. At least he can say he went to the symphony. He had to dress up for it but he said a lot of the kids, especially the boys, didn't bother. I don't understand why the parents don't at least make an attempt to follow the rules, they just don't seem to care anymore.

Jessie had her AR fun day. AR is accelerated reading. All the kids at reading age read AR books that have different levels and points. The kids read the books and take quizzes on them. At the end of the year the older grades got to go on a field trip but the younger ones just did a party. You may remember my previous blog last year about Brandon's trip to the Rockies baseball game. They went again this year but Brandon didn't quite make his goal so he didn't get to go, not that he was too upset because he didn't have much fun last year. Anyway Jessie went above and beyond her goal. She had something like 26.7 points for the school year and a 95% accurate reading level. Keep in mind her books are only worth .5 points each and they only started the program the second semester of school so that tells you how much she read. So the first grade combined and had an AR fun day for all the kids who passed their goals, which was all of them. They had different stations and every ten minutes they switched. Scott and I were manning the food station. The theme was tropical. They had a dance station with hula hoops and hula skirts and got leis to wear. At the food station, they made fruit kabobs and had fruit punch with little umbrellas. They had a craft station and one they made, I am not sure what it was supposed to be, something with marshmallows and toothpicks. They also made bubble pipes out of water bottles and socks. I am not sure how that worked because it was outside so I didn't see them. The last station they made slime. They had a lot of fun. Probably more than the kids on the Rockies field trip.

On Thursday the kids had their field day. This year it was all day which was a lot better. It was more organized and the kids got to do every station. The only problem was the weather was chilly and we had a lot of water stations so we had to improvise a little to keep them from freezing. All the kids got tshirts this year, which was nice..

It is hard to see but the front has a running wildcat and says field day and on the back it says be the best version of you.  They had laundry relays with wet clothes, tug of war which Jessie's class went against Scott, one other dad, and Mrs. Carter (the teacher). The adults lost. They had to find giant bugs in water covered with floating foam, parachute play, things like that. They even had one of the parents who is a part time DJ play music. One of the most popular things was to dance by the speakers. Brandon's class even made it into one of their stations. It is really fun to watch a bunch of little kids line dancing and doing the worm. One time he played YMCA and the kids didn't know how to do it so they formed a congo line and did that instead. At the end of the day was the annual fifth grade against teachers kickball game, which the teachers won as usual. They show no mercy for the fifth grade and win almost every year. I can't believe Brandon will be doing that next year.  They were very tired that night and then Jessie got sick and Brandon also got sick on Sunday but at least they made it through the fun days and had a long weekend to recover.

School happenings

The end of the school year is fast approaching and lots of activities in the month of May. It started with career day which Scott did for the preschool, kindergarten and first grades. The kids made him come back in the fire truck to pick them up from school.  That was on the 2nd. On the 7th Brandon went to the water festival at CSU-Pueblo. They were off of school on the 8th and 9th for literacy testing. On the 13th was their vocabulary parade. The kids are supposed to pick a word and make a costume out of it. Brandon didn't have a choice, he had to draw words and he got convulsed. All I could think of to do was get a white tshirt and put wavy lines on it. Jessie had the word lavender. She dressed all in purple and I made her a lavender flower crown and she had a lavender flower attached to her word card. They were really excited until they came home disappointed because there was no parade they just sat in their classrooms being judged and then had to sit during an assembly and watch the winners go up in front of the class. Jessie's field trip on the 15th was better. We went to the railroad musuem where they got to ride a train to and from the musuem. They didn't get much else out of it but they got to ride the train so they didn't care. Then we went to the park to eat lunch and play for a bit. After lunch we loaded up and went to the children's museum. They listened to two stories and then broke up into groups. Our group went to see the art first. I realize that they figure kids aren't that into looking at art but they barely gave them any time to look at anything. Then we went into the children's museum and they played in there for the second half. Nobody stayed on any area for more than five minutes I don't think. I took Jess home from there so she got a little extra time with me before Brandon got home. She had a good day. Brandon went to the dinosaur museum in Woodland Park on the 16th. We couldn't go because we couldn't afford the gas to get there. He was disappointed but I gave him a prepaid phone to use in case of an emergency and he felt very grown up. Of course now he wants to keep it. He took a bunch of pictures with the camera to show us.

Pat and Jim also came to visit this weekend. The kids were so excited they were coming I think they were a little overwhelming at times. We went to see them Friday after noon and then went out to dinner at Country Buffet for Aunt Pat's birthday. On Saturday we went to see Groods at the movies. That is a cute movie. That night everyone came to my house for a birthday party for Aunt Pat. We did a Hawaiian theme and everyone had leis and their own wild cup. I will get pics later and post them. Sunday everyone came out again and we visited and ate pizza. GG got stuck in my bathroom(the doorknob sticks sometimes) and Mom and Jim especially thought that was hilarious for some reason. They got their giggle fest in at least. We really enjoyed having them and can't wait to see them next year.

Next up is Brandon's field trip to the symphony, AR fun day and Teddy bear day for Jess, Field day, Memorial day and the last day of school.

I was having a not great few weeks. Things keep breaking, we keep having unexpected things come up that we have to purchase and with school coming to a close in the next month it will not get any better. I am taking the work keys test on Thursday so I can look into possible jobs hopefully with dist 70 so I would still be home with the kids for the most part. I had been feeling sorry for myself that things just aren't going easy for us. Then I got word that a friend from school whose husband has been fighting cancer died on Saturday.  They have three kids, one in fifth grade, one in first, and one in kindergarten. I think about how they won't get to experience life with their dad and he won't get to see them grow up. It was even harder for them because they thought he was doing pretty good and went to Denver for a checkup and he was admitted and never came home. It makes me remember that my financial problems are nothing compared to that. We may not have a lot of money and it can get stressful at times but at least we have our health and each other. I think sometimes I take my family for granted that they will always be there, and I for them but then something like this happens and makes you realize that any one of us could be taken any time and maybe without warning. So hug your family and tell them you love them and appreciate that they are there to drive you crazy.

Brandon's play

Brandon's 4th grade play was about Colorado history. He decided to do his project on Mesa Verde. He wanted to do a diorama and a power point presentation. I ended up doing the majority of the project and diorama and Mom did most of the powerpoint. He tells me two days before the project was due. Then he got upset because they didn't choose him to be one of the presenters for the play. I told him that if he had learned more and practiced his speech more than maybe they would have. The day before the play he came home and said he was supposed to be an Indian  for the play so we spent the rest of the evening creating an Indian costume for him to wear. It is a good thing I like that kind of stuff so I had some things on hand. They played their recorders and sang songs and 11 of the kids did their presentations. I don't know how they chose who got to do the presentations but most of theirs wasn't any better than Brandon's.

                                              Brandon during the play

                                            Brandon saying he was an indian from Mesa Verde

                                            At the end of the play

His Mesa Verde cliff dwelling diorama

 

Attitudes

Brandon is already acting like a teenager. He has attitude, talks back, and doesn't listen. He is only ten. He keeps forgetting homework and papers. He had a big project due at school and I kept asking him when is it due and if he got any papers on it and he kept saying no until he tells me two days before it is due oh by the way and I find out he had a paper for two weeks in his desk. Then he doesn't want to help with the project, and gets mad when he doesn't get picked to present at the play. He told us the day before the play that he had to have an Indian costume so we were scrambling to make something up and I had to go to school to drop off the thumb drive his project was on because he forgot it. I considered not helping him but getting bad grades on top of everything wouldn't help matters. He can be so confident one minute and crying that he is stupid the next. What happened to my sweet little boy who was so considerate of everyone especially his sister. Now he acts like he can't stand to be around her half the time. At this rate he will be grounded the rest of school year.  I think he will be a little better when Scott goes on fires because he knows money is tight and worries about it constantly even though we keep telling him we are fine. Once Scott starts working again maybe he will calm down a little.  I thought I would at least have my little girl for a while longer but she wants to grow up too fast also. She wants to wear makeup and jewelry and a training bra. She also pretend talks on the phone and told me that her play phone was too old and I needed to upgrade it because she couldn't text on it. She really wants a real phone because her best friend who is also 7 has a real one, so why shouldn't she also. Why are they in such a hurry to grow up? I would give anything to be young and not have responsibilities again. I feel like I am losing both my babies at the same time. I look forward to the next phase of their lives preferably without attitude, but I miss the sweet, innocence too. Of course in this day and age it is almost impossible to be innocent with everything that goes on in the world. I will have more on Brandon's play after I get the pictures downloaded.

Science Fair

                                                  Jessie's class project

                                             Brandon's project

Jessie did a group project where they saw if worms went to the candy side or the fruits and vegetables side.
Brandon did his on whether families had similar fingerprints especially siblings. He had to say no on the siblings because Chris and I had complete opposite types but Brandon and Jessie's were similar and his partner and his brother were similar so I think Chris and I were a fluke. Scott took him  to CBI and he got fingerprinted and they told him about them so he thought that was pretty cool.

Jessie's Play

Jessie's first grade play was on dental hygiene. They did it based on the Magic School Bus. For those who don't know what that is, it is a series of books and now tv about a group of kids with a teacher who can make the school bus shrink, fly, etc so they can explore all kinds of places you wouldn't normally be able to, in this case the mouth. They had all the characters of the book and the teachers were played by the teacher of course. Some of the kids were teeth, mouthwash, plaque, you get the idea. Jessie was Lizzie the lizard that always goes everywhere with the teacher and kids. She got the part because she is the smallest to fit in the costume which was from the kindergarten's zoo phonics play. She really got into the dancing. It was really cute, especially her, but I am not biased or anything.

                 

side view

Jessie in her costume